The Harsh Reality.

Me, myself & I.

The feeling when you suddenly came to realize that you are just alone... :(

Moody

So... Today I've received an email from SMU admissions that state "Congratulations! We are pleased to offer you a place in Bachelor of Science (Information System Management)". I was feeling happy at first but on a second thought, confused.

Still don't know whether should i go for it as its a IT course with 60% programming... :/ I was worried that i couldn't cope with all the codings and stuffs as well as the high amount of stress that i would face across the 4 years. Whereas for private degree, its just 2 years with a more flexible timetable and i could work part time to earn some cash.

This kept me thinking for almost a week already. And i still can't decide... Probably i should just put down the past and ego and ask J for some advice which is really my last resort before i make the final decision...

Uni application already made me so stressed up and then i saw smth that upset me again.. Sometimes i really wonder why does bb have so much guy friends? Every single time when i ask is sure her friend and her friend brother or smth. Hais.. i really wished i have some girl friends to talk to at times... Why do they avoid me after i got into r/s :(

Really wish i could accept all this shit and don't feel anything about it but i just can't :'( All the negativity just flashed across my mind. Although i may feel sad and just ignore you when these happens, I'll still be glad that you're truthful to me. However if bb is going to ever lie/hide anything from me, i guess its the end.

p.s. I hate ppl lying to me

Stressed up

Feeling so sad when my bb is sad and in pain. Knowing that i can't do much about it, i tried to comfort her but also no use :( In addition to that, i'm feeling so stressed up and worried about my SMU interview tmr... Really hope all these can faster end so that i could go back to my carefree life and just concentrate on sayang my bb. Very long never see her smiling brightly already. Want to bring her for a good meal to cheer her up also hard... Guess i have to wait for a few months before i could actually do that :/ 

All in all i only hope for 2 things now...

1) Bb get well/better soon and faster finish her wisdom tooth surgery successfully without anymore cocked up

2) My interview goes smoothly tmr

God please just grant me these 2 wishes...

Mehhhhhhh.

Nothing seems to go well these few days after coming back from Korea.. :( Met bb for 2 days, both days also didn't go well. What happened? :/ Shouldn't it be a happy one? Why does it end up in this way. Feeling way too down in addition the both of us don't seemed to text so much as compared to before. I need something to cheer me up! Urghhh